Tragic Christmas.

From now on, my life, will be filled, only with temporary happiness because I'll never be happy again. All the happiness will turn into sadness, all the smiles will turn into frowns. After having temporary happiness yesterday, I was back to cry a river. This has been the hardest part of life, tearing up all day. Bruno has never been away from home before, never in 9 years. To hear no barks when the door bell rings, to see his food and his bowl left untouched only clouds my eye, to come downstairs without seeing and feeling his presence is just the worst feeling in the world. It is so awkward to not hear his footsteps. He has been greedy which makes us very annoyed but none of that matters right now. I don't want to lose my dog that has watched me go to school everyday for the past 9 years, but it is more than that, I really miss how it rubs on me, shakes my hand and jumps on me every time I asked him to do so. It's so sad. I can't take it. I can't stop crying. All I can do is to hope for a miracle. All I want now is my dog. The days ahead are just gonna be gloomy. As I weep, I really hope that Bruno will be able to be back with us. :'(