:'(
It tears me up when I think I am good enough and people are like saying things... My head is really messed up and I have so many problems yet I still remain calm. You people out there just don't know what it is like to be me. I wish you could put yourself in my shoes but it'll never happen. If people don't appreciate me and don't see what I have in me then I just hope someday they will see it. It takes time. If you think I'm whatever you think I am, then that is how I will be in your eyes. You can doubt anyone but not me. Sometimes you wonder why people are like that, you don't know how problems affect people's life. Because you have everything, and that some people don't.
Most of the time I show my crazy side. Everyone knows how crazy I am. Happy, always smiling and cheerful, doesn't mean I'm not sad. How often I show my sadness? Do I even show it? Those sad feelings are hidden and not to be shared. Nobody will ever understand. People don't feel what you feel. Good people suffer more than bad people. Good people always leave this earth so much earlier. I just want to die when people cast judgements. What's more when people don't trust you after you tell the truth. Isn't trust worth so much more?
Isn't that what you look for in people? How can you possible have someone in your life if there is no trust??
I don't know what to say. I wanna list out all the words that can describe me but it will look like I'm boasting about my good qualities. So I won't say anything about myself. I want people to see for themselves, with a good and clean heart, only then they will be able to see. Because only a good person can see good things. I accept it. But what goes around comes around. Some time later, you will feel what I felt, then you will realize, what it is like, to not be trusted.
The last week of 2012 is really the toughest week of all.
Most of the time I show my crazy side. Everyone knows how crazy I am. Happy, always smiling and cheerful, doesn't mean I'm not sad. How often I show my sadness? Do I even show it? Those sad feelings are hidden and not to be shared. Nobody will ever understand. People don't feel what you feel. Good people suffer more than bad people. Good people always leave this earth so much earlier. I just want to die when people cast judgements. What's more when people don't trust you after you tell the truth. Isn't trust worth so much more?
Isn't that what you look for in people? How can you possible have someone in your life if there is no trust??
I don't know what to say. I wanna list out all the words that can describe me but it will look like I'm boasting about my good qualities. So I won't say anything about myself. I want people to see for themselves, with a good and clean heart, only then they will be able to see. Because only a good person can see good things. I accept it. But what goes around comes around. Some time later, you will feel what I felt, then you will realize, what it is like, to not be trusted.
The last week of 2012 is really the toughest week of all.
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