Why can't everyone be like me?

Holidays are coming to an end. I will have to wake myself up for a long day at school and get pressured. I really love home. Home is so much better than school. Really! We are Form 5, holidays are not given always. We have to go school more often than the rest. Oh man. This year, I don't get a chance to spend my holidays at the end of the year. I am thinking now that when others are having a good break, I'm stressing out, cracking my head and just not how a person should act.

I only had a two-day outing with Huda. Well, other friends are not cool at the moment. So, Huda was the best. Luckily she loves animals. Phew..! ZZz... I hope to feel good at school on Monday. I want to be new. I want to go school and say hi to everyone! I hope everyone does the same too. I hope no one remembers the past and act as if we were good friends. I just have to calm myself down if anything goes wrong. I know I will hear people  saying 'I'm nervous of the results, I'm scared my marks..' Oh SHUTUP. Sorry! I didn't do my best so I deserved it. So I shall wait for my name to be called and be embarrass of my marks. I should be ashamed.

I know whatever I say now would not change the way a person think I am. Anyway, I felt that something is really wrong. I am very confused. Yes because someone is confusing me. What is going on? Right now I am feeling outcasted. Why is this happening?? I know I wouldn't live that long. Don't you believe what I say? Oh well........