My crushed world
That day... I was hoping to received good news... I brought a postive mind to school and I expect to see some changes.
At class, I took a pencil and a sharpener and went behind, pretending to sharp my pencil...When my name was called.. I rushed in front to collect my paper...
The minute I lay my eyes on it and saw the marks... I was totally speechless. I can't say a word at all but just look sadly as the teacher comments..
I didn't bothered about what the teacher was saying... I was standing helplessly.. I can see my friends are looking at me wildly.. Waiting with curiosity..
I cannot believe it before my eyes... I just failed the third time. My heart was like shattered in pieces. I just cannot believe. I thought I made it..
It was the most painful moment. No one can understand... I kept thinking what I had to say next. But I can't talk.. I managed to say 'Tak ok...'
So, try imagining how it feels, if I, the worst, sitting next to the highest and the best? Omgosh, I so wanna cry.
As usual, my friends never sit quiet until I reveal my marks. When I told, they proceed with their bad intentions. Bringing me even more down, teasing, and ya, pretending to be an 'angel'.
I couldn't do anything. I almost felt like giving up. Maybe hang myself in the closet or attempt suicide. When I reached home, I was so quiet.
By now, my world has already been crushed.. Days after, I received a bad news that made my world even more crushed! I failed my Biology test.
It's not funny at all... Bio is my favourite subject. Whatever happens, I must ace it to be a veterinarian. Bio is the main subject for someone who wants to be a vet. So how?
This time, I really can't stand. When I'm at home. I just went in my room, shut the door, sit down and think, and cried.
What is going on...? Why..........? How...........? WHY..........??? HOW?????
So, I have idea on what to do next. I will never say what I'll hope for next. I won't promise myself anything. But I just do it.
The decision is up to God. I can only take action.
At class, I took a pencil and a sharpener and went behind, pretending to sharp my pencil...When my name was called.. I rushed in front to collect my paper...
The minute I lay my eyes on it and saw the marks... I was totally speechless. I can't say a word at all but just look sadly as the teacher comments..
I didn't bothered about what the teacher was saying... I was standing helplessly.. I can see my friends are looking at me wildly.. Waiting with curiosity..
I cannot believe it before my eyes... I just failed the third time. My heart was like shattered in pieces. I just cannot believe. I thought I made it..
It was the most painful moment. No one can understand... I kept thinking what I had to say next. But I can't talk.. I managed to say 'Tak ok...'
So, try imagining how it feels, if I, the worst, sitting next to the highest and the best? Omgosh, I so wanna cry.
As usual, my friends never sit quiet until I reveal my marks. When I told, they proceed with their bad intentions. Bringing me even more down, teasing, and ya, pretending to be an 'angel'.
I couldn't do anything. I almost felt like giving up. Maybe hang myself in the closet or attempt suicide. When I reached home, I was so quiet.
By now, my world has already been crushed.. Days after, I received a bad news that made my world even more crushed! I failed my Biology test.
It's not funny at all... Bio is my favourite subject. Whatever happens, I must ace it to be a veterinarian. Bio is the main subject for someone who wants to be a vet. So how?
This time, I really can't stand. When I'm at home. I just went in my room, shut the door, sit down and think, and cried.
What is going on...? Why..........? How...........? WHY..........??? HOW?????
So, I have idea on what to do next. I will never say what I'll hope for next. I won't promise myself anything. But I just do it.
The decision is up to God. I can only take action.
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