Why me?

I hate being a secretary. I hate it since I became one when I was in form 2. It was the worst position a person who like to have. In fact, the job of a secretary is much harder than a president. Probably? That year, being a secretary was the last. I would never want to be nominated again. No more. As much as I hate it, I was elected again, as vice secretary in form 4. I hate it so much I felt like killing the person who nominated me, a form three girl. What made her did that was me. I kept saying 'DON'T WANT!!' for many times and she got more excited and to make it stop, she quickly suggested my name. I was so angry. But I need to accept it, no matter what I say, it doesn't helps anymore.

This year, I would not expect to be a secretary anymore. There's no way again ... Nominated as the vice president is fine. But I am competing with Fathiyah. So Thiyah had more votes and my name automatically drop to secretary. How you think that is? Is this fate? Or just my luck? Of course I am so mad. I showed the ugliest face in the world. I was so angry! Like WTF. NOT AGAIN! My life is ruin!!! Unbelievable...! And immediately after that I had to start writing and jotting down everything that comes out from the teacher's mouth. As If I was born to do this. SHIT. The teacher talk so fast I don't even know what was she saying. The red papers are all pushed to my side. This was the worst ever. I hate my life. I hate everything at that time.

Today, I joined badminton for sports. I arrived and just sat down. Nothing ever crossed my mind about having another position. I 'tak ingin' and I never expect anything at all. I just came and wanna see who is the president and others. I was blank and being totally innocent at that time. When it's time to elect a secretary, I was just looking; almost doing nothing. Badminton has so much people in it and I was thinking : the secretary must have so much work to do... I felt bad for whoever who is elected. I was feeling sorry for that person.

So here goes... I was suggesting to my friends about nominating another friend. Then Fathiyah said my name, she said it just like that. Katherine also said my name and I was like 'EH TAK NAK LA!!!!!'. Omgosh, are you serious?! NO WAY! I was not expecting this to happen at all! I was so pissed off! My face turned black. I don't know. I SAID TAK NAK LA! Kept saying it. The 'tak nak' attracted Umaira's sister to nominate my name. That is absolutely WTF. Out of no where, a person like me, so innocent, done nothing to provoke anyone, had her name nominated, and then voted by most people, and next; elected to be the SECRETARY of that sport.

I can hardly believe it. I almost cried. Before that, I was asked to stand and show my face to people and the next thing I knew is I am the secretary. The stack of yellow papers are like infinity. Just kidding; it is countable. But I don't know. Too much to look at. Obviously, the more I say 'TAK NAK' or the more louder  my voice say 'TAK NAK', the more people will vote, the more people will want to see me suffer handling this position. I tell you, I was speechless. I felt like throwing stones on everybody . Or splash muddy water on those people. WTF. I am not greedy on positions. Please la! I already have one. And this is bringing more trouble to my life. Izzati escaped. She was the first to be nominated.

The problem was, no one would ever want to vote for me before. From the start, my votes are always the least. Today, it was surprisingly the most. I knew it was because of that huge DISAGREE from me. Later, the teacher 'awarded' me the stack of yellow papers. I cannot talk at all. Before that, I revenged on Fathiyah. She became the treasurer, nominated by me. But treasurer has easy work. Thousand times easier than a secretary. Qaisara became an AJK. But who cares? It's only an AJK. ARgh! This is not funny. It's driving me nuts. I have many things to do now. My life will be miserable from today. So I'll end up being depressed. Bye.