Breaking barriers

I need to break the barrier that is causing me to be so negative about outings. I can't continue to be like this. Half of me is telling me to be positive, the other half is telling me to be negative. What the.. Should i put trust on people i know? Hmm.. Why is it so hard to get through this! I look at it in a simple way and i like how i think. But the more i pound, the more i branch out the possibilities.. Then comes so many problems that would be afflicted. Wtf... The fact that i do think a lot. Even my friends said it directly. I think my mom is using reverse psychology on me. Hmm. That is why i'm like this? Zzz.