Not ok

:( gosh gosh gosh, I screwed up when presenting my speech! It didn't go well like how I plan... Shit.. It's very frustrating. Ok, my hands never felt so cold before. never ever! It's really icy cold! First, I blame myself for being too confident, I always like that -.- . Then, I looked at my friends while talking, shit! Those eyes make me even more scared! And Fathiyah, made me laugh in the beginning. And I forgot everything... Oh man, so sad. I'm not seious at all. Ergh!! Fine la. Whatever . I'm not good at public speaking!! Embarassing =..= . I don know how some people can do this gracefully, lol. COol ! You know or not, when I got back home, I remembered every single thing that I had memorize! Crazy right? When I'm infront of 29 people, I just can't do it. But when I'm alone, it goes well! Eishh!!! Coward, loser. aaaaaaaaaah. Who would understand me?